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Breaking your worst habit

3/10/2018

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This year, I have finally acknowledged my worst habit.
It's something I have been aware of for a long time, but I never really was that interesting in doing something about it, because I was sure I had bigger fish to fry, or more weightier problems to solve.

Perhaps deep down I thought it was something I needed to keep in play.

Whatever my reason, this year, I decided there was no reason good enough to keep my worst habit in place. It hasn't been working for a long time, and no one else could change it for me, so it is time to just get on with it.  And ultimately, every time I chose it, it just made me super unhappy.

So here was my new demand:  Stop. Being. A. Bully.

So that's it - I am out of the closet. I am a bully.  I am great at it. Possibly the best. I was bullied in school, and I have also been bullied in the workplace.  But no bully in my life has ever been able to bully me better than I can bully myself!

You might know it under another name:  self-criticism; doubt; fear; negative self-talk; defeatist mind-set; self-abuse; "I can't"; "I shouldn't"; "I mustn't"; "I will fail..." "I am ugly"; "I am fat"; "I am stupid"; “It’s impossible for me to…” and so on.

I could tell a story how I decided at some point that if I just judge me first and hardest, it would somehow stop or waylay the judgers/haters/people who told me that criticizing me would make me a better person.

Maybe I thought people would love or like me more if they saw I didn't have tickets on myself. Maybe I thought if I played pathetic, or a damsel in distress, they would see an opportunity to lift someone up, instead of bringing them down.

Maybe I had a million reasons – but none of them stand – because none of them actually changed anything!  People still chose what they were going to choose regardless, and in the meantime, I was squashing and hiding me dynamically.
 
This year, I gave up making anyone or anything else the source of my happiness.  It came down to me, in the moment, every moment.  When I wanted to bully me, I had a choice – change it or keep bullying. And no matter how uncomfortable it was, I began to ask myself: “What is brilliant about me?”  “What is great about me?” Even when I really wanted to go to that comfortable place of, “But I am so messed up! Yes fine, I am having a pretty good hair day, but I am sooooo messed up in this other area!”

Every sneaky little way of bullying me.  No more!

And it’s not about being perfect. Being perfect is a non-reality.  Brilliance, however, IS your reality. But you must be willing to say, “Bye-bye bully!” first!

Is it time to say goodbye forever to the bullies in your life – no matter where they come from? 

On Saturday 17th March (7am Brisbane, Australia Time) I am doing a FREE interactive zoom web-call in support of Australia’s National Day of Action Against Bullying and Violence, called “Bye-Bye Bully. Hello Brilliance!”
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You can find out more and register to join the zoom (and receive the replay) here.

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    Hello!

    With each blog, I  aim to invite your creativity, brilliance and difference to come forward and shine.

    Whether you are seeking pragmatic writing tips (there are some in here somewhere, I swear!) or catalysts for your creative flow, you 'll find all kinds of stuff here to assist you in often surprising ways.
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    ​XX Amanda

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